大半年前轉了一個新老闆. 新老闆不但中英文了得, 還說得一口流利法語. 而且細心如塵, 是一名完美主義者. 甚至連老老闆及老老老闆寫的東西也不及她仔細. 她的email, 間中是需要查字典才看得懂的.
自從跟了新老闆後, 每份功課被她由頭rewrite 一次不在話下. 有時, 老老闆或老老老闆改了我們的功課, 但可能他們改後的版本在文法或內容上未必很完美, 我沒有看到, 也會被老闆訓示. 當然, 這絕對是我的問題, 就算已經核對過, 還是看不到. 不過, 一份 report/brief 少則十來頁, 多則幾十頁, 交慢一點又會被催促 ('只是要你看, 不是叫你重寫, 不用那麼多時間'); 交了之後又會經過十層老闆的批改, 有時還要中英對照, 那個老闆改了中文版某個字, 我就要即時改好英文版. 而且在其他同時/往後在做的功課中, 只要是相關題目, 用字也要緊貼最新的版本. 問題是, 這些文件經過多人的多重批改後, 不知怎的總會出現一些怪異的現像, 例如: 這裏多了一個space, 某幾個字細了一個font size, 這段的字與字之間的spacing 變得有點不同, footnote 變了沒有上標. 面對這些龐大數量的文件, 每份曾經出現過十幾個版本, 要做到100% 準確, 又要快, 對粗心大意的我來說很有難度.
如是者, 每日也會接到老闆的電話/電郵, 或告知錯了什麼, 或訓示一輪. 每次電話一響我就很緊張, 越緊張就越錯. 我覺得我們倆個都在折磨對方. 對她來說, 身為一個老闆, 竟然要執下屬的手尾. 想必她已接近忍無可忍的邊緣, 上星期我做好了一份功課, 但還想再等一兩天看事態發展, 以便在deadline 前加入updates, 怎知反而因此忘記了. 老闆就將我忘記了交功課一事直接forward 給老老闆看. 而我就像一條拉得很緊的橡根. 這種害怕返工的心情除了在打工生涯的頭兩年是沒有出現過的.
曾經有一位同事告訴我, 自從跟了她之後, 覺得自己由萬能變成無能. 我現在很有同感. 沒想到一把年紀, 自信心還可以這樣跌到谷底.
就當是入 camp training 啦 對著要求高的老闆，對自己也有好處的，當係間唔中 training keep up 下自己 (不過最好唔駛對咁耐啦)
回覆刪除Really understand the stress you have. Have to relax and don't let it hurt your health.
回覆刪除Maybe your strength is not on proof-reading only. You should be proud of your strength on other areas.
[版主回覆04/09/2011 00:16:00]Thank you. I guess enjoying life is my one and only strength.
u have my sympathy!! Feel so sorry for u. It's such a great stress to work under someone who is not only competent himself/herself but also a perfectionist!!!!I can understand how stressful u feel. I have similar experience also. But if u see things in a much more optimistic way, u will learn a lot from this boss!!! At least your boss can teach u something. U know, there are so many bosses who are stupid and incompetent but still like to pick faults with us.
回覆刪除Don't worry too much. I think as time goes, u will know what she really needs and there will be less and less mistakes to be found by her :)
[版主回覆04/09/2011 00:14:00]I've learnt a lot from her indeed... when I was less busy. The pressure is so overwhelming at times that it completely engulfs my desire/ability to learn.
我明白呢種感受，未必全是你的問題，放鬆d，盡左力便夠，有意見即管改，當學習，但不要俾自己太大壓力，否則點走下去呢！
回覆刪除[版主回覆04/09/2011 00:09:00]現在做完一份功課總攬著不放, 左看右看都不敢交. 長期下去真的會發瘋!
長期對住呢啲老板會好大壓力,take care呀!
回覆刪除[版主回覆04/10/2011 15:44:00]Thank you. Lucky that cooking and gardening can help take some of my pressure off.
"身為一個老闆, 竟然要執下屬的手尾. 想必她已接近忍無可忍的邊緣, 上星期我做好了一份功課, 但還想再等一兩天看事態發展, 以便在deadline 前加入updates, 怎知反而因此忘記了"
回覆刪除同我一樣 , 我比你幸運因為我老細好easy going, 不過自己都唔好意思.
唔知點解交功課前死睇爛睇都唔見有錯,十分離奇!
[版主回覆07/14/2011 19:47:00]鬼um 眼